sagefire8

Sorry, I don't really have anything interesting to post. I will say that I am going to try and be more positive in LJ. It's easy to come and bitch about stuff. Making positive comments is another story. Who knows, if I write about positive topics more frequently, maybe I'll start to think more positively in general. It definitely beats turning my life into a Linkin Park album.

Okay, so positive stuff: I had an enjoyable time while my parents were down in Florida for two weeks. I had stumbled upon the fabulous site that is youtube.com where I feasted upon hefty portiones of Bleach, Naruto, Fullmetal Alchemist, and Samurai Champloo episodes. I also found jpop music videos there that I have been searching for for months. You Tube is just awesome and definitely my favorite site.

I got a myspace account. I haven't put anything in it yet, but I'm sure if Crys pushes me to do it enough then I will. I'm still trying to get used to the idea of putting myself out there for the world to see. It is kinda fun finding people on there that you haven't seen in a while.

I'm trying to pick a cool new game. Devil May Cry 3: Special Edition and MGS 3.5 are on the top of my list. Any other suggestions are welcome.

I'm still on the job hunt. It's tough. The kind of jobs I'm looking at would take relocate me to different parts of the world. Oh man, if any of these pan out the internet withdrawl symptoms might be quite harsh, not to mention lack of electricity or running water in worst case scenarios (too negative?). I'd really like a job that's low stress, has a friendly work envornment, good pay and benefits, not tedious, and allows me to buy all the cool stuff I want. That's not asking too much, is it?

I'll make this quick: Leno and Letterman are retarded. Leno is an ignorant jackass and Letterman is just senile.

O'Brien and Kimmel really need to knock these guys off soon.

Andres out.

I can't decide whether I like curly-haired Howie Mandel or shaved head Howie Mandel better.

I checked out a game show that he hosts on NBC. It was pretty addictive, in a stupified way. I won't go into details into how the game plays because it's difficult to explain. Just watch it if you're curious. But despite its complex system, the game boils down to a simple task: pick suitcases at random and hope you win a lot of money!

I feel sorry for Jeopardy contestants. After a heated battle of brains with two other contestants, the winner walks away with what is equivalent to the minimum amount of what Deal or No Deal contestants usually win. And Deal or No Deal contestants get to oogle hot babes. All Jeopardy contestants get to oogle is Alex Trebek.

In conclusion, moustached Alex Trebek doesn't hold a candle to 'stache-free Alex Trebek.

It's been a while since I've posted here. I want to post more often though, partly because I want to get better at writing.

I went to the supermarket today with my mom. She and my dad are going to be vacationing in Florida for two weeks so she had this crazy fear that I would starve to death while she was gone. While one side of me appreciates that she cares enough to buy more food than I will ever eat, another side is kinda let down that she doesn't have confidence in my ability to take care of myself. Well truth be told, I haven't shown her much to prove that I'm self-sufficient. What about college, you ask? Well even in college you live in something of a security bubble. It didn't help that I self-destructed my junior year either. It's hard to live that down.

So I think this calls for a change. Maybe you can chalk it up for my need to grow (some might say a need to feel fixed), but I am going to apply to the Peace Corps. For those that don't know, Peace Corps volunteers leave home for two years and work in a developing country somewhere in the world. Volunteers do anything from teaching English, community development, to HIV awareness. It's not easy. You live in the same conditions as the people around you do (maybe a little better). This could mean living with no electricity or running water. It depends on where you go.

It's definitely tough. They go by the slogan "The hardest job you'll ever love". They give you enough money to pay for food and rent. At the end of two years, you're given a little over $6,000 for your service. There are some perks though. It looks good on your resume, the Peace Corps has a good alumni network, educational opportunities, and other things. Plus the experience.

The Peace Corps would give me a chance to do something meaningful for the world. There aren't a lot of jobs that are as altruistic. And after being stuck in post-college limbo, I really want something more, something different.

Things to do...

1. Laundry

2. Public Relations News Release

3. Com Research Take Home Test

4. Study for Rhetoric Quiz

5. See what I have to do for Broadcast Performance

6. Check out the Career Fair

Dammit, why is it so hard for me to do all that???

Holy crap, I finally updated!

Yes, it's been a while. The second semester of school last year was a hellish time for me, and I don't spend as much time on the computer during the summer. But now I have returned!

I am now in my 4th year at college. It's a little unnerving really. I don't have any plans in life after this. It's all so uncertain. I'm worried about doing well in school and getting enough credits. I'm also worried if I need more intern experience. I've also got a lot of baggage from last year. There are some courses that I got an incomplete on. I want to resolve things, but I am afraid to confront my professors about it. I feel so ashamed just thinking about it. I'm tired of feeling so low about myself. I just wish there was something I could take pride in. Not to mention my parents don't acknowledge me. They never say they are proud of me or give me praise, or hope, or support of any sort. It feels like so many people look down on me as a failure, including myself.

Oh yeah, well I guess I should mention some positive stuff. A thread I started got an article written about it on the front page of Shina Online. That was kickin' ^_^. I revealed that the Silver Haired Men in Final Fantasy 7: Advent Children were based off the boy band Hanson. It's true! I cited photographic evidence. There's no denying it. :)

I also snatched up a job working for Paul Wilson, one of my Com professors. I'll be in charge of watching over the camera equipment, logging sign ins and sign outs, and helping people with their editing. Paul complimented me on the commercial I made last year. He said I have a lot of talent. He also pretty much called me a lazy ass, which I guess is pretty much true :P

Now I have a new video project that I'm working on as well as a slew of other things. I really need to stay on top of everything instead of goof around like I usually do. Dammit, if only I wasn't in my last year of college. I really wish I could go back and do things over. Oh well, one way or another, it was a good learning experience I guess.

Sage out

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I know I've said this before but I'd like to state it again: I have the desire to just wander the country with a backpack full of gear and a katana. I hate the feeling that I'm living in a super-imposed system; a prisoner of society. Go to college, find an internship, get a job, buy a house, pay bills....blah blah blah. It's feels so standard and conventional, almost completely expected of people. I feel like I'm locked in and there's no way to escape the demands of the world. Even the expectations of my parents is a trap. They've spent so much time, energy, and money to raise me over the years. I feel like as long as they are alive I am obligated to fully utilize my college education and do something with myself that would be pleasing and acceptable to them.

I'm pretty tired of being in school. I've been a student for most of my life (for simplicity's sake, I'll say 20 years even tough it's more like 16 I think). So 20 years. Damn. If I live to be 80, then that's a quarter of my life. If it's to 60 then that's a third! Being a student feels so bloody wasted in a way. Year after year of class and homework. Geez. And then you ship off to a job and become a productive memeber of society for 20 to 40 years. Then you grow old and die. So boring....so empty, so meaningless.

And I hate writing papers. I'm sick of being graded. I'm sick of being evaluated. I'm tired of proving myself. I know that I am learning. I don't feel like proving it to others for 20 years. Damn it all! Just fricken leave me alone!!! There's no point anymore!!! If I want to learn, I want to do it on my own terms!!! *sighs*

I just wish there was something more to it all...

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I ended up playing Diablo II all day today. Very lame. The game is addictive. I can't help it. It's all about finding the best and rarest items and maximizing the abilities of my necromancer.

Yes, a necromancer! I curse my enemies, make dead bodies explode, cast poison spells, and summon minions of the undead to battle the forces of evil!!!! Oh the power!!! THE POWER!!!! Muahahahahahahahaha!!!! *ahem* *regains composure*

Anyways, the game is cool. Lots of assholes online though. But a surprising amount of nice people, too. Hurry for free items!

Oh, and today I got a special deal on pizzas. Large cheese pizzas are only 5 bucks from Domino's on Monday. I bought 3! =D This is good since I'm on campus right now during Spring Break and all the dining halls are closed.

That is all for now.

Okay, so there's this site called eharmony.com. It offers a free personality test and then uses the results to find people you are compatible with. So I was bored one day and kinda curious so I decided to take it. And you know what? It said I wasn't compatible with anyone!!! The site apologized and said that a percentage of people just wouldn't be able to gain use from the site. Funny, huh?

ha....ahaha.....ahahahahahaha.........heh.......ehhhhhhh......-_-

You know what the world needs? A Little Rascals video game! Let's make it an FPS shooter. You get to steal blueberyy pies off of window sills and slingshot crab apples at people. Battles take place in the backyards, tree houses, woods, and junk yards of the neighborhood. And you get to race your soapbox derby racers to catch the ice cream truck. O tay? O tay!

Apparently I have bad taste in women according to some (*cough*Crys*cough*). So because of that, I decided to make my first post about a girl I have a thing for. She's in my screenwritng class. She's outgoing, she's very charismatic, and she's got a lot of personality; qualities that I have a lot of trouble finding in girls. I guess the outgoingness and charisma are qualities I'm kinda lacking in myself, too. In a way, I guess I'm trying to finding someone who possesses qualities that I don't. It's interesting that I'm attracted to her, because she's hispanic, and I'm not usually attracted to them, but she has nice features.

Anyways, she's pretty cool. The professors like her. She's got lots of friends. And she's very laid back and comfortable with herself. (more qualities that I lack, hehe). She's kinda tom-boyish in a way, but still feminine. (She's not a lesbian so back off, Crys!...then again, I've been wrong before obviously :P ) There are a few problems though. She's a senior, meaning she graduates in a couple months. She lives in California, while I live in Virginia, and she's already got a job lined up and seems to be all set with life. I'm still trying to find my way. I also think she might have a boyfriend back in California, but I'm not 100% sure.

Ultimately, I'm not going to do anything except fantasize. I just don't really have much to offer her. *shrugs* It's funny though, all my friends from high school have girlfriends now, even the most unlikely of people. I'm the only one that doesn't. Sometimes I wonder if things would have been a lot better if I didn't come to Villanova University. It's a good school, but so much of the student body here feels so superficial and fake. I came to college to encounter lots of different and interesting people, and I end up with stuck-up shallow cookie-cutter rich white kids. I just wonder if I could've formed better relationships and had a more interesting experiences had I went to a different school. Ah well.